Heart-centered Meditation and Spirituality

For my whole life, I was deathly scared of feeling my shame, and I did not even realize I was hiding from it! There seemed to be this depth of vulnerability I was unable or not yet ready to reach. After 33 years, I have finally found the courage to feel it; and when I did, I was SHOCKED to find out what was behind it.

In Alamosa Colorado two weeks ago, I was sitting as the client with a therapist-in-training, trying to dive as deep into my psyche as I could. I was desperate to heal my deepest psychological wounds; fear, shame, anxiety, all of the darkest stuff I have been walking with for so long.

While sitting with shame, I simply closed my eyes and felt into my body, repeating the word “shame, shame, shame” with an open curiosity. After a few moments, I could feel my heart becoming fully alive! The fear surrounding shame, being too scared to feel into its depths, began to dissipate and walls began to crumble around my heart.

What came forward was an aliveness of INNOCENCE and childlike joy! I brought my shoulders back and my heart forward to allow this innocence to flow a little more freely. Then the feeling came with words; “Ah! this is ‘Little Kyle’ just wanting to play and be himself, free.” It was my inner-child fully speaking from the core of my heart, reminding my adult self not to hide from the innocence anymore.

Behind shame, there is this child-like innocence in the core of the heart.